- Mood:
drained
so tired,but i cant sleep
my mind is just swirling. i spent 3 hours on the phone with Carls wife this afternool. we talked about everything. Lisa's really cool. honestly, after the mexico incident last year, im not really sure how much to share with Joey. Carl shares everything with Lisa. she knows about every i.m. conversation and email. i just tell Joey sometimes. i guess cause i know i gush i feel a little inhibited around the subject. i dont want to have those uncomfortable conversations again. things have actually never been better between us, but im afraid ill rock the boat by accident.
im so sleepy. its taking so long just to write this because of all the mistakes im making. i dont know what to think. love is so simple and so complicated at the same time. hopefully ill have good dreams tonight. Joeys at the station all night again. at least once a week. 24 hour shifts. my mind wanders. my wild imagination takes over. i need to sleep. i just dont want to.
but,zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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July 24 2005, 13:25:33 UTC 6 years ago
So much fun...
Hey Yve,Lisa had so much fun talking with you! If there is anything I can do to help ( talking with Joey, writing to him, what have you ) please do let me know. Communication is so very important. I would not have it be that I become a point of disharmony for you and your family.
The Lord has guided our lives together for His purposes...perhaps for the very purpose to draw you closer to Joey as well as praise for His gentleness and kindness. Lisa gives thanks for you for the friendship and love so apparent.
It is both our wishes to have our families grow together in friendship, fellowship, and love in Him.
In His Love,
CD
July 25 2005, 12:28:52 UTC 6 years ago
Re: So much fun...
Thank you for your offer of help. I asked him if he wanted to send you an email. He said that he was just too busy. Truthfully, he is. I'll send you his address and you can start if you want. I did talk to him about it all. We worked it out, so far. He didn't understand the importance because I never talked about you. I just couldn't. I carried this secret in my heart because it was a little painful to remember and miss you so much. When Lisa told me that you used to talk about me, I felt like I was a terrible friend for not doing the same. I learned in my family that if something is special, don't share it or it will be twisted into something common and used against you. I'm sorry. I think he understands a little better. It will take some time. I had so much fun talking to Lisa too. I think we can all learn to love each other and be great friends. Like I said, we'll be together for eternity, let's get used to the idea now.July 24 2005, 22:01:48 UTC 6 years ago
I'm nosey!
July 25 2005, 12:18:53 UTC 6 years ago