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Wow! [Jan. 12th, 2013|05:42 pm]
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So, In the last 2 months I have seen my life change in so many ways I never could have imagined. I had a manager at work that put a bunch of lies about me on my annual eval. He wrote my up for something that never happened. He accused me of something else that never happened. In fact, the other people who were supposedly involved in my wright-up worthy incidents, were never even spoken to about all the made-up accusations. They were both so mad when they found out. By then, it was too late. I refused to sign my eval or the written correction and handed in my resignation. Of course, I spent 2 days crying about it. I've never had anything like that happen at any job in my whole life! Two weeks later, I was out of a job. I was so stressed out by the whole thing that I got the worst cold/flu that I have ever had. I actually had to call in sick for my last day, because everyone kept telling me to all week. They were sick of me coughing and sniffling. I only kept coming in because I had one more shift with giant (5'4",230lb) nemisis. I had to prove to myself that this bully didn't scare me. I know that sound stupid now, considering that I quit over it. At least that day I didn't feel like a pathetic loser.

The very next day, which was also my 22nd wedding anniversary, my Mom called and said that me stepdad, who's had cancer for at least 10 years, had been in the hospital and was getting out the next day. She needed me to come take care of him during the days so she could work. My last actual day was Saturday. On Monday I was at Mom's. I drove 45 minutes there and back 4 days in a row. I was late to Sabrina's birthday party one night. I let Sabrina skip school on Friday to come with me and spend time with Grampa. However, my Mom called on Thu night to tell me that he was in the hospital again. We went to the hospital on Fri instead. He finally came home on Monday, on hospice care. I kinda moved in. While he was in hospital, his children invaded my Mom's house. They had visited once in 10 years. All of a sudden, they love their father and want to help take care of him. Whatever!

Anyway, I got to spend lots of time with my stepdad that no one else got. We talked and listened to classic rock. We watched tv and sat in silence. It was great, in hindsight. He was so stubborn. No matter how weak he was, he always wanted to get up and walk around. I let him. I had nothing better to do than walk around the house waiting to catch him if he fell, literally nothing better to do. The only times he ever actually fell were when I wasn't there. He had a son who was in school to become a paramedic, without any previous experience in the field, of any kind. Dork!

They all finally left after a few days. They said things that made my Mom happy, so that's good. I stayed and took care of Michael day and night. I gave meds every 3 hours. Assisted hospice staff with exams and bathing, etc. I finally felt useful. I've been a little bitter since Bonnie died in the middle of the night, without me there to help her. Almost like she did it on purpose. But Michael wanted me there. He would complain whenever he was left alone with Mom the week before. Mom kept telling me that I was so good at it. After 41 years, I was actually needed and finally good at something. I still really miss Bonnie, though.

On Friday night Mom sent me home. I had a Christmas party to go to and she thought I needed a break. I actually felt fine, but I had RSVP'd that I'd be there. Besides, I love Christmas and Christmas parties. I had a great time and fell asleep happy. I missed the 6 am call that Michael had died. I wasn't there, again. My Mom was alone when it happened. I'd failed.

We spent the next week planning and taking care of final arrangements. My friend Bob died the next weekend. Then, we buried Michael on Friday. His church service was Saturday, the same day as Bob's. It was also the same day as Tyler's 1 year anniversary memorial. I didn't make it to Bob's or Tyler's. I'm such a terrible friend. I only made it to Zumba once in the entire month of December. And, I still had no job. LOSER. Plus, while I was at the lunch thing afterwards, my psycho sister called to tell me that she's moving in with me. She also has 2 young sons.

I went to Portland a couple of days before Christmas, to hang out with Sarah. She died my hair. I got a little purple and teal in the back. I like it. We drove to Salem for dinner with Nana and Pierre on Christmas Eve. We went back to Salem on Christmas day and met up with Joey, Collin and Sabrina. Sarah and Jon went went back to Portland that night. We all stayed 2 more nights. I had a crazy allergic reaction or something. Right at the start of dinner, I suddenly had trouble breathing. It got worse when I tried to talk. I took some benadryl and slept for about 5 hours. Awesome! Merry Christmas.

We finally went home a couple of days later. Collin and his girlfriend Katelyn started packing for a trip to
Arizona. She's from Arizona. They left last Monday. Jenette and the boys got here on Tuesday. I have been driving her around all over town all week. ESD, Job Council, library, recovery meeting, ER, everywhere. I even took her to Zumba with me on night. I'm so tired. It's almost the middle of January, my house is no longer mine and I STILL have no job. I won't have any ambulance shifts until Feb. My car payment is a month and a half late. I haven't worked in over a month, but I still haven't really had a day off either.
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2011|07:59 am]
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Still waiting to hear some good news, but at least I'm getting used to the stress. Have to work the next 3 days. It's fair week. Tuesday was really slow because it was the first day of fair. The weekend will be horrible. Lots of drunks. Can't wait. At least it's not a full moon. I would have to hide. I need a job that doesn't involve people.
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Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage [Aug. 20th, 2011|01:46 am]
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MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebrities - Collage - Morph

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Writer's Block: No. 1 hits [Jul. 7th, 2011|08:32 pm]
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A Hard Day's Night is my favorite because It's the first Beatles song I remember hearing. I didn't understand the words at all, but it sounded so happy, cheery. Almost nursery rhyme-ish. It was playing on the radio one Saturday morning while my mom was making her bed. I was the kick-off of clean-the-house day. I still always listen to loud, fun music while I'm cleaning or cooking. A Hard Day's night evokes all sorts of happy, accomplished memories. I still love listening to it and singning along at the top of my lungs.
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Collin is all the way home! [Jul. 7th, 2011|08:17 pm]
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He suprpised us by coming home early. 2 other techs stepped in to cover my shifts for me this weekend, so I could spend time with him. That has never happened before. Its always so hard to get coverage. Especially last minute. I wrote them both up for teamwork and service.
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(no subject) [Jun. 21st, 2011|08:40 am]
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I had been using a journal at work, but a coworker got all emotional about it one day while we were having a disagreement about something. She thought I was writing about her. Whatever. She overreacts to everything. I still need to copy ALL those pages and delete the whole thing. It's going to take a lot of time and trouble.
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Happy Birthday! [Nov. 2nd, 2008|02:13 pm]
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How old will you be on Tuesday? 39 or 40? I hope your birthday is great. Have fun.E>
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Happy Birthday! [Apr. 30th, 2008|08:26 am]
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How have you been. Haven't seem you lately. Hope you're doing something really fun for your birthday.
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Busy,Busy,Busy [Nov. 20th, 2007|01:18 am]
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Just a quick post. I've been working at the emergency room of the local hospital. I had 4 graveyard shifts in a row right at the start. 645pm-715am. Lately I've been working 12noon-1030pm. Much better.I have seen and done some pretty amazing things. I'm still in orientation, but I'm getting lots of stuff signed off by my preceptor this week. We have been so busy that the hours speed by. I like getting the paychecks too. I got more for 4 shifts in 2 weeks then I used to get coaching, lifeguarding and teaching swim lessons 5 days a week for the same 2 weeks. I'm looking forward to my 6 days off. Then I'm back at it.

We also have another highschool senior living with us for a few months. Friend of Collin, good kid. I'm tired.
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What a week! [Oct. 3rd, 2007|07:24 pm]
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So, Monday I was out running errands. My phone was being weird. It would make this noise every 5 or 10 seconds that kept it from sleeping. The battery couldn't stay charged because this had been going on for a while. The only thing I got was a beep to let me know that I had a voicemail. Missed Call. It was the guy about the job. My battery died after I listened to the message. I went to the nearest phone store to see about getting it fixed. They sent me to the one across town. I finally got a loaner. My phone is going away for 6 to 8 weeks. The loaner had mud dried in it. The loaner was broken too. I got back to the store at 7pm. It was closed. I begged to be let in. I got another phone. The next morning I realized that my contacts never got put on it. I finally got to talk to the guy. He needed my references. Done. Tuesday, I'm supposed to run errands for Joey. The car won't start, again. I was stranded at home until 2pm. While I was out the guy called again to offer me a job. YAY! Today the car wouldn't start... say it with me... AGAIN. My kids were all late for school. I had to call my brother-in-law. Joey is on his 24 at the airport. I was supposed to be helping Tim out today. Instead, he had to bail me out again. I borrowed his other car and watched the baby for a few hours. While I was out I got a call about the job. It was good news. More about that later. I finally got back to the phone store for the second time today and got my contacts downloaded to my loaner. They couldn't find the other loaner earlier. I just got home at about 6:30pm. I've been gone all day.

Now, I took my drug screen and hearing test today. I have a meeting with HR at 9am and my physical at 9:30am. My orientation is on Tuesday. I'll be working On-call at the local ER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will occasionally be making more than $15/hr. No bennies, but I've got my foot in the door. I'm really excited. Share a glass of wine with me to celebrate.
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